The Lord does not necessarily call us when we feel ready. I am sure you have cried out to the Lord at some point, “NOW, Lord??”
A Connecting Streams volunteer was recently invited by a friend to reach out to others at a very painful time in her life – at a time when she most likely felt like she had nothing to give. Now, several months later, sitting down over coffee with a colleague, she began to cry as she reiterated what the Lord has just done for her.
Walking others through the Compass, she had discovered (along with those with whom she was sharing God’s love) that the Lord was pursuing her. It was a profound insight. Along the path of ministering, her own heart was changing and being healed in the going.
I’m not surprised. In Isaiah 58:10 – 11 we read:
“…and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday. The LORD will guide you always, He will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail.”
Your brokenness and points of need – your circumstances (though difficult) – your inadequacies and insecurities – these may just be the very things the Lord will use to bless others and, in the process, bring healing to your own heart.
When Jesus called the disciples to follow Him – to put Him first in their lives and to be on His mission of fishing for men – it wasn’t necessarily at an ideal time for them, with ideal circumstances. They followed because He asked. In Luke 5, Simon’s thoughts about himself were, “Go away from me, Lord; I am a sinful man!” Then Jesus said to Simon, “Don’t be afraid; from now on you will catch men.” He is calling us too. The correct response? They “left everything and followed Him.”